I wasn't ready...

I wasn't ready..

As cliché as the saying goes. "A relationship is either a lesson or a blessing", for me it was both.

After few months of tossing around the stages of losing someone, I finally come to the point of acceptance.

This is my acceptance that I wasn't ready...

I wasn't ready for the blessing that was given to me.
Financially. Emotionally. Spiritually. Intellectually.

I placed  pressure on someone of a responsibility that I, myself, wasn't prepared for.
It was selfish for me to think only of how I feel.
It was selfish for me to allow myself to think only of the frustrations not the effort that was shown.

This is my acceptance of the unfair actions from my side. I should have chosen "us" than the noise that seems louder because of distance. I should have held tighter to the Author of love than the ideas of love.

This is my acceptance of the things that happened and of the things that I hoped to come to fruition but did not.

This is my subtle resignation to our downfall. That no amount of analogy will make me understand how can a single offense has the power to become the breaking point.

This is me making peace with myself. Grateful that for a moment I was loved by the man that I admire. That if I will be given the chance, I will still choose to mature with him, grow with him and grow old with him.

For now I must grow as an individual. I need to heal on my own. To go back to my first love and tap on His infinite grace.

Together or not. I believe His grace is sufficient enough to bring us where we should be.

For His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher that our thoughts.

Batad, Banaue - Atok, Benguet Itinerary

Here's a quick background story of our DIY tour to Mountain Province. Just recently, a news broke out about Sarah G's breaking down during concert due to 'emptiness'. Siguro uso yun ngayon. Yung feeling na wala kang feelings... hahaha! One of us felt that way kaya biglang chat "Tara Atok tayo sa weekend." As a support "Tara lumanghap tayo ng hangin na nakakagaling!".






We started booking our bus ticket to Banaue through CODA LINES. Then we booked transient house in Atok, NORTHERN BLOSSOM FLOWER FARM then another transient house in Batad, BATAD TOPVIEW POINT HOMESTAY.

Bilang DIY to, those three bookings already made this travel all set, bahala na si Batman sa mga magaganap pag dating doon.. :)


DAY 0:
--Friday 11:50PM--

Meet up at HM Transport Cubao Bus Station. Delayed yung flight namin, este travel. The bus arrived 1:00AM, sana naligo pa ko..nyahaha!


DAY 1:
--Saturday 8:00AM--

We arrived Banaue by 8:00AM. We registered at the Municipal then we meet Ate Grace, owner ng Batad Topview Point Homestay, sinundo kami to take another 1 hour van travel to Batad. Upon arriving Batad, we had to take another 8 minutes walk/trail to homestay.

To our surpise, heres' the view in front of us, nakaka-wow sya! Ang sarap gumising dito! ..parang pag gising sa tabi ng taong mahal mo..hihi! <3

After taking brunch, coffee and an hour of rest, we started getting ready for our Rice Terraces and Tippaya Falls Tour. Brace yourselves, it is a two hours of trekking along rice paddles and a lot of stairs! Syempre, your time depends kung gaano kayo katagal mag picture..hehe. It took us five hours back and forth including swimming.

Habang nag lalakad kami, wala kaming ginawa kundi hanapin si Thanos. Most of the travelers are foreigners than locals, so hindi si Thanos ang nakita namin, mga kasing gwapo lang ni Captain America. Nyahaha!

On our way, napapansin namin na lahat pababa, "Patay tayo nito pabalik, puro assault to!" at hindi kami nagkamali. HAHAHA! Do not worry, sulit naman! The falls was awesome, nag swimming kami kahit malamig. Nakakawala ng pagod. :)